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August 11, 2026

"Trilobites" by Breece D’J Pancake

Some stories make setting feel important.

Breece D’J Pancake’s “Trilobites” does something stranger.

The setting seems to remember things.

The story follows Colly, a young man living on a failing farm in West Virginia. His father is dead. His mother wants to sell the property and move to Akron. His former girlfriend, Ginny, left two years earlier and has suddenly returned for a visit.

Meanwhile, Colly spends a surprising amount of time thinking about fossils, vanished rivers, old railroad tracks, abandoned buildings, and people who have gone somewhere else.

Not much happens, at least at first.

Colly drinks coffee. He works the farm. He talks to his mother. He goes out with Ginny.

But beneath all of this is a much larger question.

Should he stay?

Or is staying exactly what has trapped him?

What surprised me most about “Trilobites” is how Pancake turns that simple decision into something that stretches across millions of years.



Plot Summary:

Colly lives with his widowed mother on a farm near the fictional town of Rock Camp.

The farm isn't doing well.

The cane crop is failing. A man named Trent wants to buy the land for a housing project. Colly's mother wants to sell and move to Akron.

Colly doesn't want to go.

But there's a problem.

He admits that he isn't particularly good at farming.

At the same time, Ginny has returned from Florida. Years earlier, Colly imagined that the two of them might build a life together. Ginny actually left. Colly stayed.

Her return forces him to confront how differently their lives have developed.

Running underneath all of this is Colly's grief for his father. Everywhere he looks, some part of the farm seems to contain a memory of him: the barn they built together, the boundary post his father set, the place where he died.

So Colly isn't really deciding whether to leave a piece of property.

He's deciding what he owes the dead.

Why the Trilobites Matter

Colly likes fossils.

More specifically, he wants to find a trilobite.

He keeps searching even though his elderly friend Jim tells him that most of the exposed rock around Rock Camp comes from the wrong geological period.

At first, this feels like an eccentric character detail.

Slowly, it begins to feel like the story's organizing idea.

A fossil is something that once lived and has left an impression behind.

And that's basically what surrounds Colly.

His father is dead, but Colly sees traces of him everywhere.

His relationship with Ginny is over, but he still remembers the future they once imagined.

The ancient Teays River no longer runs through the valley, but Colly can picture the water flowing through it.

Old railroad lines remain while the world around them changes.

The past in this story doesn't disappear.

It leaves evidence.

And Colly seems to approach his own life the same way he approaches the hills. He keeps searching the present for whatever remains of what used to be there.

Pancake Makes Time Visible

One of the strangest things about Colly is the way he sees the landscape.

He doesn't just look at what is there.

He imagines what used to be there.

Driving along the highway, he sees the vanished Teays River beneath it. Looking across the valley, he imagines fields and cattle where buildings now stand. Later he thinks about bison before the railroad arrived and ancient gases being pumped from beneath the ground.

In another story, all of this could become heavy-handed.

Fossils equal the past.

The disappearing farm equals change.

End of symbolism.

But Pancake makes the idea more complicated than that.

The ancient landscape itself wasn't permanent.

Rivers changed course. Mountains eroded. Animals vanished. Land rose.

Everything Colly thinks of as permanent is actually the result of enormous change.

That creates an interesting contradiction.

Colly is surrounded by geological evidence that nothing stays the same, yet he desperately wants parts of his own life to remain exactly where he left them.

The Farm Is Already Gone

At one point, Colly looks across the dying cane and admits something he has probably known for a while.

He can't run the farm the way his father did.

The drought has hurt the crop. Blight is finishing it. His mother is seriously considering Trent's offer.

And Colly knows he's losing.

What's interesting is that I'm not sure Colly actually wants to save the farm as a farm.

What he wants to save is what the place contains.

His father worked there.

They built the barn together, and Colly says that looking at its nails brings back the same dull pain.

His father set the boundary post.

His father died on the property.

The farm has become a physical archive of their life together.

Selling it therefore feels like more than losing land.

It means allowing that archive to be broken apart.

But Pancake keeps showing us that preserving a place doesn't necessarily preserve the life that happened there.

The farm is already changing.

Colly is already changing.

His father is already gone.

Colly and Ginny

Ginny creates a different version of the same problem.

Colly remembers the girl she used to be.

He remembers what they planned together.

Early in the story, he recalls writing in her yearbook that they would someday live together in Florida.

Ginny actually went.

Colly didn't.

When she returns, Colly immediately notices that she seems different. Her clothes are unfamiliar. She wears more jewelry. She has another boyfriend. Her life exists somewhere else now.

Then comes one of the smallest and most painful moments in the story.

Colly asks if she ever looks at her old yearbook.

Ginny doesn't even know where she put it.

For Colly, that yearbook still contains a possible life.

For Ginny, it's something she has misplaced.

That's their relationship in miniature.

Colly has been preserving it.

Ginny has moved on.

The Story Changes Here

From this point forward, spoilers are unavoidable.

Colly and Ginny eventually enter an abandoned railroad depot.

What follows is uncomfortable.

Their encounter turns sexual, but the scene quickly becomes coercive and ugly. Colly realizes Ginny isn't emotionally present in the way he wants her to be, and instead of stopping, he retreats further into his own head. He imagines another girl beneath him. Memories of his father intrude.

Afterward, he asks Ginny to let him leave with her.

She doesn't.

It's a disturbing scene, and I don't think we're supposed to come away from it feeling that Colly has simply suffered another disappointment.

Something in him has broken loose.

Throughout the story, he keeps trying to recover things.

The farm as it existed with his father.

The future he imagined with Ginny.

The town before everything changed.

Even the ancient landscape beneath Rock Camp.

The scene in the depot destroys the fantasy that returning to something can make it what it once was.

Ginny can come home.

Colly can touch her.

They can revisit an old place.

None of that restores the past.

Colly's Father

Then Pancake quietly changes the meaning of Colly's father.

Until this point, his father has largely represented home.

He worked the land.

He built the barn.

He set the boundary post.

His death seems to make Colly's connection to the farm even stronger.

But near the ending, Colly pictures his father as a younger man.

And suddenly he sees him differently.

His father had traveled. He had been to Michigan. He had gone to war. He had experienced places far beyond Rock Camp.

Then he returned.

Sitting beside the railroad tracks, Colly realizes that his father's mistake may have been coming back.

I think this is the moment the whole story turns.

Not because Colly rejects his father.

Because he finally stops confusing his father's life with his own.

For most of the story, following his father seems to mean staying on the farm.

Now Colly recognizes another possibility.

Maybe repeating his father's life would mean repeating his father's mistake.

What Writers Can Learn From “Trilobites”

The biggest lesson for me is how much Pancake trusts physical details to carry emotional meaning.

Colly rarely gives us a clean explanation of his grief.

Instead, he notices things.

His father's coffee cup.

The barn.

A boundary post.

A crop.

A rock case.

An abandoned depot.

A railroad disappearing into the distance.

Pancake doesn't need Colly to repeatedly tell us that he can't let go of his father.

He puts him in a world where everything reminds him.

That's much more effective.

Let Setting Reveal Character

The landscape isn't simply background.

It shows us how Colly thinks.

Another person might look at Company Hill and see a hill.

Colly sees a million years.

He looks at a highway and sees the river that once ran beneath it.

He looks at the gas wells and imagines an ancient sun.

That tells us something important about him.

Good setting doesn't merely establish where a story happens.

It can establish how a character sees.

Build Patterns Without Explaining Them

Fossils.

Dead animals.

Old buildings.

Abandoned tracks.

His father's belongings.

Extinct rivers.

Again and again, Pancake gives us things that have disappeared but left something behind.

He never pauses to explain the pattern.

He trusts us to feel it accumulating.

That's something worth paying attention to as a writer.

A repeated image becomes much more powerful when the reader discovers the connection rather than being told what it represents.

Character Change Doesn't Require a Speech

Colly doesn't suddenly announce that he has learned to let go.

He doesn't even know exactly what he's going to do.

Instead, his understanding shifts.

At the beginning, leaving frightens him.

By the end, staying frightens him too.

That's enough.

Why the Ending Works

The final pages give Colly an obvious opportunity for escape.

A train approaches.

But Pancake doesn't give us the dramatic version of this ending.

Colly doesn't jump aboard.

He knows the train is moving too fast.

Instead, he decides to spend the night at home. After that, he thinks he may go to Michigan, Germany, even China—the places connected to the larger life his father once lived.

Nothing has been solved.

The farm may still be sold.

His father is still dead.

Ginny is gone again.

Colly still doesn't know exactly where he's going.

But something has changed.

At the beginning of the story, his imagination keeps moving backward.

Toward his father.

Toward Ginny.

Toward the ancient river.

Toward a world that existed before the present one.

At the end, that same imagination finally begins moving forward.

The story doesn't end with Colly leaving.

It ends with him becoming capable of imagining that he might.

Final Thoughts

I started “Trilobites” thinking it was going to be a story about a young man who doesn't want to lose his family farm.

By the end, I wasn't sure the farm was really the problem.

Colly's problem is that he loves things by preserving them.

His father.

Ginny.

The land.

The version of himself that belongs there.

But “Trilobites” keeps reminding us that preservation has another side.

Fossilization.

A trilobite can survive in stone for hundreds of millions of years precisely because it is no longer alive.

I don't think Pancake is telling Colly to forget his father or abandon his home. The ending is more complicated than that. Colly can carry those things with him.

What he cannot do is remain unchanged simply because they matter to him.

That's what makes the title feel so right.

Colly spends the story looking for something ancient preserved in stone.

By the end, he begins to understand that he may not want the same thing to happen to him.




February 12, 2017

Vanka by Chekhov - Expressing Humanity through Words on a Page

Today on the blog I am excited to write about Anton Chekhov’s story Vanka. Coming in at five pages, it is incredible how much impact this story has at such a short length. The story is hyper focused on a young boy’s tragic predicament as an apprentice shoemaker under abusive and awful circumstances. The story takes place over one night when the young boy Vanka secretly writes a letter to his grandfather who Vanka remembers in tragic detail.
Perhaps my favorite aspect of Chekhov’s style is his knack for description. It pretty great when you get a sentence like this: “The entire sky is studded with gaily twinkling stars and the Milky Way is as distinctly visible as though it had been washed and rubbed with snow for the holidays.” This sentence is meant to show the clarity and ideal nature of Vanka’s memories of his grandfather. Because Vanka’s life is so awful, it is easy to envision a better life. Vanka is also quite young so he has not had a great deal of formative memories yet. What makes Vanka unable to deal with his current predicament is the fact that he has experienced a better life. The abuse he suffers at the hands of his guardians is utterly abhorrent.
Chekhov is a master of the short story form. As a doctor he mined material for his stories from the many patients he treated. Chekhov’s vocation allowed him to understand the human condition by learning about the lives of many different people. This is why characters in Chekhov’s stories seem so realistic. Every character in Chekhov’s fiction is likely based on a real-life person. This allows Chekhov’s work to serve an important function – it provides readers a mirror with which to base their own lives upon. Chekhov’s work is universal. At some level, all of his characters are dealing with a problem that has been experienced by people all over the world. Vanka’s experience represents the experiences of suffering children through history.
All of Vanka’s attributes are universal. The way looks at the door before writing, how he sighs after remembering a happy moment with his grandfather, the fact that he lacks the knowledge of how to properly address his oh so important letter. These qualities speak so much about this character and his experiences in the world. What makes this story so tragic is the humanity that is expressed through words on a page. Chekhov is arguably the best at pulling this off.

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February 9, 2017

Offloading for Mrs. Schwartz

Today I am writing about one of George Saunders' lesser known stories "Offloading for Mrs. Schwartz" which is the fifth story in the collection CivilWarLand in Bad Decline. Like most of the stories in this collection, this story focuses on someone who hates their job working a strange company. Saunders uses this premise so much because its easy for people reading to relate to it since pretty much everyone has worked a job they didn't like.

In this case the strange company's business is interactive personal holography. People pay to enter a virtual reality in a process that involves treadmills and headsets. The specifics of how this futuristic process works are not explained in detail because that is not what Saunders thinks is important. Saunders chooses to focus instead on the grieving process of the main character who lost his wife. The strange futuristic setting is simply an interesting backdrop that doesn't really factor into the story's core.

The narrator volunteers to help a dying old lady named Mrs. Schwartz who requires a live-in caretaker. The narrator feels it is his responsibility to provide this service for Mrs. Schwartz but unfortunately his virtual reality business doesn't provide him with the necessary money. Towards the end of the story the narrator is held at knife point by a hapless intruder. The narrator knocks the intruder unconscious and accidentally offloads his memories onto a hard drive. When the intruder wakes up he appears happier without the many painful memories he once possessed. This gives the narrator the idea to sell the intruder's memories as virtual experiences for customers and this idea is profitable enough that the narrator can afford to hire a caretaker for Mrs. Schwartz. This idea eventually forces the narrator to offload all of his own memories. The narrator leaves a final note telling himself to take care of Mrs. Schwartz with money that will arrive in the mail.

This is perhaps the least satisfying ending of any George Saunders story I have read. The ending is somewhat tragic because the narrator has sacrificed all of his memories but it also seems happy since the narrator will have a much better life without any memories. The central question of this story is how does memory help us when there are so many negative events to ruminate on. Judging by this story, Saunders seems to believe that memory serves a harmful purpose more often than not and most lives would be better lived if we could start over with a blank mental slate. This is the lesson Saunders hopes to teach us.

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June 24, 2013

Afterworld by Anthony Doerr

Anthony Doerr's collection of stories, Memory Wall, is incredible writing. Although some stories are obvious stand-outs, each one is an example of fiction at its strongest. The true test of any short story is how long it lingers in readers' minds after being consumed. Stories such as "Memory Wall", "Afterworld" and "Village 113" will stay with me for a long time.

"Afterworld" deals with the life of an epileptic woman named Esther Gramm who grows up in Germany during the rise of the Nazis and lives out her days in a rural Ohio town. The story cycles rhythmically between Esther's childhood and old age in a way that feels natural. As with all of Doerr's stories, the pace is graceful and structured while never feeling forced. It's hard to describe the tempo of Doerr's stories so I recommend you find these stories for yourself either online or in a hard copy. I wish I could provide a link to an online version.

Esther experiences seizures that speak to her and allow her to experience her own past and what seems to be the memories of other people such as her parents. Even after her memory has deteriorated, Esther's epileptic fits allow her to go back in time to the orphanage in Germany where she grew up. The world wants to classify Esther's epilepsy as a medical problem but she thinks of it as a gift. Esther is truly one in a million. Her epilepsy connects her to the doctor who eventually saves her by taking her away from Germany. The seizures let her see images that fuel her imagination and influence her career as a children's book illustrator. Esther's grandson Robert interviews her to get material for his thesis on World War Two. The seizures may interfere with her moods and make her do strange things, but the story makes a compelling case that they are more good than bad. Without them, Esther is just another girl. In many ways Esther's epilepsy is a crucial aspect of the story.

"Afterworld" is the kind of story that affects you mentally and emotionally. Esther and the girls living in their orphanage are innocent and really have no idea that death is right around the corner. Thankfully, the story omits any portion of the girls' lives post-orphanage. Memories live in our minds until our minds grow old. It's important that some memories become immortalized in some way or another because humanity can lose important lessons. Doerr's Memory Wall is a compelling examination of how memory works.


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